Monday, 10 September 2012

It is never enough

Letting out a scream is not enough,
the shrill in your voice will only make them close their ears in disgust.

Dropping a tear is not enough,
the water droplets from your eyes will only make them turn away.

Expecting a helping hand is return is not enough,
the gesture will only make them forget all that you have done so far.

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

Once My Hero


Sometimes he looks at me with so much hatred
That as if I was not his
Mocks me till I bleed
The bloodshot eyes tears into my soul
I wish he could love me like before
He still says that he does but why cant I feel it now
I miss being a child when he was my hero,
My only source of strength
The day he left and betrayed me was the one I loathe
Left me in the clutches of demons who savored upon my youth
Now he says I was not what he thought I would become one day
I wish I could point out his grave errors to him
Dad I never thought you could be like this!!!

Monday, 31 October 2011

Conflict of Thoughts






Her mind and she never look eye to eye
as the former always dominates the other
most of the times they pretend as the other one does not exist
and they play games in their own ways
At times they hardly pay any heed to the other
and sometimes they are best of friends…
A crack is tearing into her skin
but she cannot even feel the pain anymore
An open space from the past claws at her heart
...So steadily it creeps into her thoughts
She cannot even find her in this mess,
 until she sees herself in the mirror
Yet the mirror seems vulnerable to the truth
To see inside her she needs her eyes to borrow her mind

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Tearing Down


Most of them banish it as a cull,
Others act as they witness it with pleasure
her dash into delirium...

They feel the holler
behind her remark,
But cover their ears to please
because they might get affected
by her stirring silence...

Friday, 20 May 2011

10 sides of a teacher...


“Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.”

That's how I would describe my experience of teaching till now. I never ever in my conscious mind thought that I, Suman Doogar will become a teacher and what's interesting is that, man I simply love it. My students are great, my class is amazing and I got a awesome bunch of co-workers, but I would still crib about my salary. Anyways one thing that I face everybody at my work place, is an identity crisis. As people and my dear students put it, I dont suit the profile of a teacher, neither do I look like a teacher. Hellooooo, why the stereotypes and why cant I be a COOL teacher. Ok I have a piercing and a tattoo, does it take away the fact that I love what I do? 
Recently my dad suggested, that I should start wearing specs to school, so that I look the part I play everyday. My co-workers tell me that I am more suitable for HR jobs and my friends feel that its the most relaxed job in the world. Ahhhhhhh!!!!!! Why so many biased views towards everything. 
Ok lets leave all this aside and concentrate on why I am writing this blog. I going to write about a few things in me that does not support the norms, here it goes:

1. I talk about anything and everything in my class, from sex to relationships to the fears a student has.
2. My students are free to express their viewpoints on anything in the class.
3. I sometimes hang out with my students.
4. I am an out going person, who loves to drink and have a great time, late nights to clubbing to a lot of stuff I cant mention here.
5. I want them to learn about life and not to rote learn the book. Anybody can score in psychology but very few can apply it in their own lives.
6. I enjoy the attention ;)
7. I dont speak about their personal lives in the staff room, I feel people who do it are lame.
8. I hate wearing shalwar kameez to school, it makes me feel old.
9. I feel more close to the student community than to the teaching staff.
10. Students should be given more freedom to do things that they want, too many restrictions these days. We cant stop them from falling in love, or stop them from having weed or restrict them from clubbing, then why do we need to pretend that we can. 

I believe teachers should only Teach and not Preach. 


Sunday, 1 May 2011

The Hour Of Berevement

On the brim of delirium,
she cant find any cognizability.
Pain is her demented reality,
else is just a perception of her existence.
The murkiness swirls in with the flames,
she fights for breath as life tries to conquer death.
As shadows tiptoe to greet her & voices sneak into her head
& the screams echos like nails across the chalkboard.
She drifts as the room spins & the limpid figures close in.
She could see the abondoned asylum & her spirits softly weeps,
the hour of berevement is dawning.
Take her for THE new life.

Friday, 29 April 2011

Why single is good???

Whenever I say that I'm single, people suddenly gets into the act of finding me a new boyfriend. Why they do it, I still don't understand. Is it difficult for them to see me happy without a guy or is it necessary for an individual to have a guy/girl in life. Whom m I kidding??? I had my share of relationships and flings. But after a certain age you just can't pretend to be chessy and in love all the time. I'm single by choice and not by compulsion. I do want a boyfriend but don't want to settle in for anything less than perfect, as someone recently quoted in her Facebook status - "I have simple taste, I only like perfect things". Anyways so now to tell you why m writing this blog is to tell you the reasons why you shouldn't have a guy in your life and enjoy the bail period to the maximum. It goes like this:
1. Stay single and don't hamper your reputation by tagging along with a super dumb guy, who can only admire himself in the mirror and pink would suit him better than you ;)
2. If your mum likes the guy you are dating, then girl you are in for big trouble...coz no one wants to get stuck with a mamma's boy (doesnt matter whose mamma it is, trust me the danger lies ahead)
3. He might write lovey dovey stuff on your Facebook wall and secretly tries to flirt with your friends. Stay away from this kind of a moron.
4. Don't date a guy whose worships you, coz after a while you will get bored (this for women who wants to be tamed)
5. Stay away from the kinds who tries to embarrass you in front of your friends by sharing your personal stuff.
6. No use of having a guy when your work schedule is totally fucked up. And all you want after a day's hard work is to cuddle to your pillow.
7. If you like to be the MAN in the relationship then don't just date a lame duck.
8. Cant think of anything else. Don't just date a random guy till you feel he is in your league ;)

Phewww harder than I thought....anyways so its out now...STOP asking me now!!!